Evaluation/Conflict: Jay's Journal.

1) The thing I liked most aboout the book, was the poems. I liked that he had a poem for almost every situation. They made a lot of sense and he didnt write them just to write them. If I could change something, I would probably change the gender of Jay. I know its a dumb thing to change, but I feel like I can relate more to the character if it was a girl, because I am a girl. (weird huh?) I disliked the fact that, he was in a zone where he felt like nobody liked him.

2) The main conflict in my book would probably be that he cant  seem to keep long relationships, dealing with love and just friendship. He took the death of his friends pretty hard, and he stuck to Debbie, even though she was just using him. Even with Barry because of her Down Syndrome and he was kind of embarrased. The death and breakups lead him to being even MORE addicted to drugs than he already was. The internal conflict would be him trying to decide weather he should keep getting things for Debbie. The external conflict would probably be he made friends and fell in love with the wrong person.

TRUST.

"Debbie has stopped writing altogether so I guess I' going to have to get my head into something else. But what? What in the world what? In a way I'm kind of glad we broke up. She used me! The dirty little whore used me! Just like everybody else tried to tell me she would."
page. 32.

This probably shows that he will not trust girls because of what Debbie has already done to him. I think maybe next, he will try to find another girl that replaced Debbie. He says he wants someone better, but he knows that nobody will replace her. I like Jay because, I like how he expresses his feelings, and I kind of know how he feels.

Thrid Book Reflection.

The book I am reading is called, Jay's Journal. The author is Anonymous. The main character is Jay. The name of his journal is Judas. Jay is VERY smart. She has an IQ of 149+. He expresses his confusions, hisn hopes, and his fears in his diary. The setting for this book is unsaid. I think it is unsaid because this can happen to anyone, anywhere, and an anytime.

My feet won't let me.

"I'd love to stay and chat, but my feet won't let me. I walk home imstead of taking the bus. I unlock the front door and walk straight up to my room, across the rug, and into my closet witout even taking off my backpack. When I close the closet dooor behind me, I bury my face into the clothes ont the left side of the rack, clothes that havn't fit for years. I stuff my mouth with old fabric and scream until there are no sounds left under my skin." page-162.

What just happend was that, she just found out that her EX-bestfriend, and the guy who raped her are going put with each other. She hasn't told anyone about it, so thats why they are going out.

I chose this quote because, I think it is one of the main points of the story. And it shows exactly what her reaction is.

I think, that hopefuly she will get over it, or her friend will find out, and break up with him.

STUPID party.

"I have worked so hard to forget every second of that stupid party, and here I am in the middle of a hostile crowd that hates me for what I had to do. I can't telll them what really happened. I can't even look at that part of myslef." page-28.

What just happened was that, she was just confronted in a whole bunch of people of what she did, and she can't say anything because she is to scared. She won't say anything.

I chose this quote because, I think this is the main part of the story. The title is called SPEAK, and she couldn't SPEAK!

I think, that hopefully she ends up SPEAKing about what heppend so that she wont be embarrased. And so that everybody can get over it and forgive her.

Nearly dead, but not totally.

"For a solid week, ever since the pep rally, I've been painting watercolors of trees that have been hit by lightning. I try to paint them so they are nearly dead, but not totally .. One picture is so dark you can barley see the tree at all." page-30.

She's saying that, basically she is drawing what she feels(in my opinion). She's almost completely depressed, but not completely.

I chose this quote, because I like that she can express herself in drawing. Not many people can do that.

I think, that hopefully she ends up getting happy and forget about everything, and start drawing happier things(:

PSEUDO-friend.

"I need a new friend. I need a friend, period. Not a true friend, nothing close or share clothes or sleepover giggle giggle yak yak. Just a pseudo-friend, disposable friend. Friend as accessory. Just so I don't feel and look so stupid." page-22.

What just happened, is that she realized that she has no one to talk to. All she wants is someone to make her feel like if she has a friend. Not a best friend, but SOMEONE.

I chose this quote because, I think this is what everybody would feel if they didn't have any close friends. They would just want someone to have as an accessory.

What I think would happen after is, HOPEFULLY she'll find a friend just to have, AND also a best friend <3